I have ambitions. Big ambitions. I'm not talking about your standard hodgepodge of fame, wealth, and women (lies!), no, what I really want to do is make a difference in this world. When you think about everything that goes on beyond our realm of consciousness, essentially anything outside our borders, it just makes you want to curl up and bawl your eyes out. Poverty, famine, drugs, rape, murder, war, disease, just about every kind of affliction you can think of runs rampant, and yet the distance between us, and all these examples of human misery and suffering is so far apart, it almost feels as if it doesn't even exist. For the most part, it doesn't. Sure the fact registers in our mind, and we can vaguely recall that there are certainly places on this world outside of the one that we've constructed for ourselves, and occasionally a shocking look into the depths of these hells-on-earth may jerk our attentions towards it for a brief moment or two, but in the end, it just doesn't fucking exist. I can't blame most people, just trying to go to school seems trying enough, why would I want to shoulder the burden of children who worry about getting shot or raped every day? In a place where reaching your 18th birthday is an achievement, and not a given, you just know, there's something totally and completely wrong here.
But I'm not here on my soapbox today, trying to drag you down with bad mojo that might sour your whole outlook on humanity, hell, you won't be seeing me running out to sponsor my first African child anytime soon, far from it. There's really only so much you can expect of "civilization." What can you say about a society that only becomes charitable during certain parts of the year and couldn't give a fuck otherwise during the other 11 months? We are generous only when its convenient for us. I always found it funny how the incidence of holiday miracles rise only in times when such acts are recognized as such. People should put more effort in pulling off Christmas miracles when its not Christmas. But you'd be hard-pressed to find a full-time altruist, and I suppose we're lucky at all to have some of us become part-time altruists, even if its out of some self-satisfied prerogative, or maybe just a simple obligation.
In either case, I believe the efforts of activist groups all over the world are wasting their time at trying to effect a change through such ineffective devices as those things we call the "truth." In a world where lies are truth, and the truth lies, the truth, truthfully, just doesn't mean shit. People don't want 4 quarters and call it money, they just want a fucking dollar. Too many people, protesting, crying, rallying, and all sorts of miscellaneous and futile displays of politicization fail to realize that nobody wants their cheap coins, copper pennies are worthless, even if a hundred of them equal a dollar. You will not a find a man willing to take ten thousand pennies if he could get ten dollars instead. People don't want the truth. What people want, is the package. There's no surprise that Al Gore's "An Inconvenient Truth" does fuck all at the box office while "Avatar" is the number 1 movie of all time even though they carry the same eco-friendly/humanity-sucks-ass message (it's a total stretch, I know), and that's because one is a scary-as-fuck movie about the apocalypse, and the other is a badass special effects bonanza.
So how can one, theoretically, change the world? I've already laid it out the outline. It's not by writing a letter to your friendly neighborhood legislator, its not by being an agitator, it's not being that "one" in the family who loves to fight for a cause that the family doesn't give a fuck about, and it's certainly not by believing that you can make a change by doing something as droll as voting. While I will argue that perhaps the best way to make change is infiltrate the government through the same shady circles and procedures that are designed to keep actual idealists out, and work your way up through a decrepit and corrupt system controlled by corporate interests, bribery, and generous gifts, and until after clearing all that bullshit and you're finally in a position of real power, only then can you finally betray all your benefactors for the greater good; but I highly doubt that by the time you reach that rarified air, you'd be inclined to do anything other than sit on your ass and enjoy life, so that approach is impossible by default. Truly the only way one can make a change is to make a package. The backbone of any package is a story, because people love stories. If you can throw together a story, with great characters, and bold challenges, then you have yourself right there a package. That is my plan, to create the ultimate package.
My goal is simple: to make a package that can change the world. What kind of package exactly? I don't fucking know, but it's gonna be awesome, and that's all you really need to know. It's going to be uplifting, and its going to be sad, but its going to force each and every one of us to take one hard look at ourselves in the mirror and ask, are we who we really are? I'm going to wring every last drop of tear I could from everybody in the world. I want to reduce the world into a blubbering mess of wracked sobs. And from those tears, maybe we can wash our stain away, cleanse our past of our sins, of all the injustices, the history of our failures and violence, purging our souls, purging humanity, of the dark cloud that has hung over us since our inception as living, breathing, creatures. Morality, ethics, religion, science, society, all of those things can never hope to achieve my dream because they fail as a total package unto itself. I will change the world. I will create a package that humanity can take pride in, can take solace in, and hopefully draw strength from and push forward towards an ideal future where we don't have to curl up, and bawl our eyes out.
If that don't work, then hopefully I'll be a rich bastard to make up for it.
