My life has been a series of delayed expectations. I'm just biding my time for the right moment to return...and then put it off. Procrastination is a deadly disease. I keep telling myself I'll get my ass in gear after E3, but thanks to the manga I've been reading, I'm starting to get hyped for life.
I read 3.3.7 Byooshi and it's inspired me somewhat. If we all had personal cheerleaders, who knows how much we could accomplish? You can't underestimate the effect of verbal support. Even something as simple as "I believe in you" could mean all the difference in the world. Knowing that people are out there struggling for their dreams means I should do the same. The only difference is effort. I gotta try.
The problem is I know I don't have to. As long as there's wiggle room, I know I don't have to try hard or at all. That's my biggest problem. I can't manufacture urgency. My dreams alone are not sufficient enough to motivate me. I can only hope that in all this wasted time, my mind has been unknowingly sharpened, honed, and prepared for the unexpected trials and tribulations ahead. I need effort. Not one-sided indulgence. But the practice of putting my all into a single task.
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